What if....

What I would have become if not a software engineer? This is one question which has been tormenting me ever since I joined as a software engineer. I tried answering this question in many different ways: I told myself several times affirming, I wanted to become one. But, my famous inner voice never agrees to it. Whenever I pronounce these words it squeaks. And my outer voice always becomes helpless to convince inner voice.

Later, I tried alternative approach using the words: I would have been a Doctor if I would have failed to become a software engineer. But fundamentally, I lack the most promising memorising techniques which is a key for any Doctor. Remembering the stuff is not for my brain unless there is some link attached to it. May be, right from my childhood I programmed my brain in that way. If I need to remember something, I need to attach a tag to it which becomes a locator when I try to retrieve the remembrance. This raises a potential question whether I could have successfully achieved a career in Medicine or not.

So whenever ,my inner voice asks this question, my outer voice stamps the inner voice "What difference will it make?" raising a completely genuine and different question 'Am I doing want I supposed to do? Am I doing what I was born to do?'. May be this fundamental question might have maddened some point of every one's life.

Then I realised, if I did not liked to become software engineer how would I have handled this job so well. How would I have jotted each and every technique of software engineering to make a complete software product. How would I have used the existing services so well to implement new shared services.

Thinking this question as just one of the nuisance of my inner voice I always ignore this question.